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Never The Will – A DMagick Poem

Never The Will

by D. Tovar

Never the will of the man of the many

That allows his heart to bleed

No thought is sought, nor memory recalled

To plant this hurtful seed

Never the will of this man or any

That sends oneโ€™s mind to sleep

What night reveals and does not shield

Locked inside the man does keep

Never the will of the man of the many

To find the mate of one manโ€™s soul

He sits in sorrow and sobs insanely

With not the ability to keep control

Never the will of this man or any

That allows himself to feel

Though never the will of the man, again

Permits his heart to heal

Always the will of the man of the plenty

To find his one true mate

When half meets whole, the missing soul

The will of the man is led by fate

 

I was in the writing mood while writing my book and this poem started to pop into my head so I pushed to finish it. I know exactly what I meant and was wondering if any of you can decode it. Let me know if you understand what I’m saying and what the point of the poem is ๐Ÿ™‚ Thank you for reading!

sweet serenity,

Derek….

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Hello Readers!

Today’s blog is about inspiration. I recently started writing a book and needed a quick break, so I came here to blog about what I’m doing. Magick ALWAYS inspires me. Everything I do has magick behind it, being helping people, writing, or just living life. Does magick inspire you at all? If so tell me how! Whenever I write stories I will always have some mystical aspect to it. I want my characters to feel real in unreal situations. Is it possible…scientifically possible to control fire with just a look from your eye? Well a few people out there will say yes, and damn it, i’d like to see that, but no, I don’t believe it is. Also, those out there who claim that can, can you teach me? haha ANYWAY.

I feel the more we put magick or witchcraft out into the world, it will be more accepted. If not accepted than at least tolerated. No one should be treated less than because of a faith they have, especially one that doesn’t conflict with everyday life. We aren’t some lunatic religious group telling people that if you let gay people get married then next people will want to marry a goat. You know, i kind of doubt that would happen, but hey, if that is your argument so be it.

What I do is not let people ruin my specific faith in the energies around us. I wouldn’t feel the way I do, or dream the way I do if what I believe was wrong. There is a power inside me, a power I use often. I’m in touch with the energies that surround me and am slowly learning how to use them properly. I believe the best way to get inspiration is to use the elements. Your strongest would be of course the element in which you were born under. As a child of water, listening to the ocean always inspires me. Don’t live next to an ocean or body of water? I understand! Well kind of, i’ve always lived next to lakes, ponds or now the ocean. I will say this, I know it sounds weird, but I get inspiration also in the shower. I let the water devour my being and let my mind wander. Standing there naked as the stream of water flows down my head covering my body, ideas quickly flock to my brain. Have an artistic block? Take a shower, let the water cleanse and break that block. Even if you aren’t born under the water sign, trust me, it works.

Next is fire. I love a good bonfire, always gets the juices flowing. This is great for a gathering, a meeting of a coven, or just plain fun. Grab your sacred herbs to burn. A good inspiration attracting mixture is anise seed, bay leaves and orange zest (ground orange rind). As they burn, you will feel the energy flow into you. Staring into the fire can also induce a meditative trance and let you see things that normally may not be seen, which will also inspire you. You don’t have to do this at a bonfire of course, you can use a candle. I suggest an orange candle, but a white one will work just fine. You can burn the herbs as incense while staring into the flame of the candle. This is sure to spark whatever creative flow you need.

Earth is an amazing grounding element that you can use to tap into the energies of the earth. Using a grounding ritual is always best. If you can’t do it outside, that is fine, everything is connected. It will just take more focus. The best way is to sit outside and dig your hands directly into the ground, calming yourself and focusing on the energies within flowing through you. Become one with the earth. If you are inside, light a brown candle to help you focus. place your hands on the floor and again, tap into the earth energies from beneath you. It doesn’t matter what floor you may be on, i’m on the second and have done this. Feel your hands reach through the floor into the ground below. Meditate on this energy gaining exercise and you should be inspired in no time. Another fun way is to dig your hands into dirt, I’m sure you have a houseplant somewhere. Just reach in and feel the energy from the plant and the dirt itself. Be one with nature.

Finally we have Air. Go outside, feel the gentle breeze flow into you, let it engulf you in its wonder. Open a window, and sit next to it, breathe in the air deeply and embrace it’s power. What if there isn’t any wind? Get a fan! Best way to get air is to make it. Let the soft hum of a fan lull you into a meditative trance as the air takes over your body. The element of Air is one of the best for drawing inspiration. Those born under the element of Air are usually stuck in their own minds, it’s always flowing freely. Embrace that, let every single thought run through your mind. Piece them together, let your mind take you on the journey. If there is wind, and you have a dying dandelion, blow the seeds from the dandelion and as you watch them float away, ask the winds to bring you inspiration.

I hope this blog inspired you. Don’t forget to comment and leave feedback! Talk to you soon everyone! Terra – Aeris – Ignis – Aqua – Elementa ego vocare!

sweet serenity,

Derek….

Broadway Pier

Broadway Pier, San Diego at sunset

I absolutely love sunset pictures. When the rays pass through objects I just think it’s beautiful. I drove passed this pier while driving downtown San Diego. I passed it and knew I had to take a picture. There will be more to come, I promise ๐Ÿ™‚

sweet serenity,

Derek….

Potion of Pregnancy

Greetings All

I know I haven’t been posting lately, and I apologize. I have trouble keeping focus when there are other factors going on in my life. Luckily for you I was commissioned to work some magick for a client and I want to share that with you! Exciting right? Though I will say this post is for my…adult readers. I do NOT condone girls getting pregnant, this is for women only…or of course men who want to help their woman.

I believe you need to be ready to have a child, give he or she the love they deserve. Speaking from personal experience, having parents who don’t have the capacity to raise and love like one needs…it can be…painful. I desperately seek love from others, that I should have gotten from my family. When I’m in trouble, I turn to strangers first, before calling my family. So not to be a total bummer, use with caution is my only request. Think everything through.

The Request

I was requested to make something to help my client conceive. She had been trying and wanted a second child. I told her that I would be able to create a potion to help the process along. I did this once many years ago, but never heard of the outcome, so I figured this would be perfect to test out my skills.

The Potion

Now if you are going to do this for someone, make sure they aren’t allergic to any seeds. This is very important as it is a common allergy. I make my potions from all natural ingredients so they can be ingested, but you must always use caution. With that said, this is what I created.

The Ingredients

2pts Shelled sunflower Seeds
1pt Poppy Seeds
Green Food Color

Burn the seeds in your base. I use Everclear which is a pure alcohol made from corn. Let the fire take the essence from the seeds and send your energy into the potion. Charge it with the power of creation. Think of the person you are making it for having a healthy baby.

Actual Potion I Made

Once finished, pour the mixture into a bottle. I added some of the ground up seeds in the bottle as well. There was a secret ingredient I added. It was a powerful aphrodisiac potion. This unfortunately I won’t give the ingredients for, but just do some research and use your own experience. In mine, there were both male and female aspects to it. Since my client wanted a boy, I doubled the male ingredient. Finally, add some green food color to symbolize life itself, giving your potion the final kick it needs. Cork or put the lid on your bottle and you are done.

The Spell

Ok, you have your potion…now what? Easy! This is meant to be ingested. Tell your client to make dinner and add the potion to it. The two trying to conceive should eat together. After the dinner, the aphrodisiac should kick in and the “magick” should happen. There should be a strong desire to, make it happen.

Alright folks, that is the pregnancy potion! There is a disclaimer though. This potion should NOT be used against the will of the second person. Both adults should know about the potion, or at least talk about getting pregnant. Also, magick does not replace modern medicine. If there is a medical reason one cannot get pregnant, then this potion will not be able to change that. I wish you all good luck, and good health. I will keep you posted if my client in fact is going to have a boy!

sweet serenity,

Derek….

Blessed By The Fae

Hello my readers!

It has been ages since I’ve written a blog, and for that I must apologize… I unfortunately came down with a strong hit of depression and didn’t feel like doing anything. I couldn’t even think of what to write about. I’ve had this draft with my flash creation on my WordPress for a LONG time. So again, I’m sorry….

So, my next topic is quite controversial. I get VERY mixed responses from different people I speak to. So my question to you is, do you believe in Faeries? Some of you will laugh, some will get excited and some won’t even finish this blog. My answer is, yes I do…Laugh if you must but I feel they protect me. The cynic in me is laughing at myself actually, but the magickal part of me knows it’s true.

What is a faery? This mythical being is described very different ways.

Picture of a girl I turned into what I view a faery to look like

A fae is a magickal creature that does not live in this world, but it believed to live in a parallel plane inhabited only by other fae. They are described as small ethereal winged beings made of light and adorned with shiny, sparkling nature-type items. Faeries were not always depicted this way though. There are old writings that described them more like angels without wings. So unless someone has actually seen one to know for sure, the world may never know. If I had the ability to do more research, I would look much deeper into this. I have a slight learning disability so reading is tough.

I had an encounter with something a while back that I believed to be of fae relation. One night I was laying down on my couch in the dark about to fall asleep when I heard “hi” in my ear. It sounded like a little girl, but was real quick. I didn’t move…didn’t know what to think. Then I heard it again…and again…suddenly it was like there were 100 little girls in my ear saying hi really fast. Once it stopped my whole body started to tingle. It was similar to the feeling you get when your leg falls asleep then you try to get circulation back in it. To this day I have no idea what happened. It just felt to me like I was being blessed by the fae. I wish I could talk to them…

I will post more about them once I learn more. I will try my best to call some to me, if it’s at all possible. I have tons of books on this… I just need to get into the right mind to read again. Hope you enjoy my picture and flash creation. I know this blog wasn’t exactly informative, but hopefully it will get me back into the writing mood so you guys aren’t bored. Happy casting to those of the old ways.

sweet serenity,

Derek….

Sorry Everyone!

Hello!

 

This is just a quick blog to apologize that I haven’t blogged really anything recently. I’ve been busy with my graphic design, I promise to come back soon! I have a lot of new pictures to post, i’m going to do a post on faeries and whatever else comes to mind.

 

 

Talk you guys soon!!


Click the link above to follow on my Facebook if anyone is interested in my design/photography work ๐Ÿ™‚

sweet serenity,

Derek….

“The House” – A DMagick Photo

The House

The house photo taken by derek tovar

ยฉDerek Tovar 2012

This is the beginning of a new section of this blog, photography. Sometimes I get inspired to take pictures and then manipulate them into art pieces. This is a house I found in Ocean Beach here in San Diego, and I thought how cool it would look if I took it to a darker place. I removed the background, and put an HDR Toning on it. I desaturated most of the color and put ominous clouds in the back of it. Then I manipulated the pixels to make it look more like an oil painting.

Let me know what you think! ๐Ÿ™‚

sweet serenity,

Derek….

A Spell of Healing

Brightest Blessings My Readers

I hope you have enjoyed my writings added to my poetry section. I’m trying to keep this blog updated and interesting. Today’s blog is about a Healing Spell I recently created. A friend of mine has been very sick so I wanted to help him out. Unfortunately he doesn’t believe in magick and didn’t feel comfortable with me trying to use it to help him out. If any of you try it, I would love feedback.

Healing spells are used to speed up the healing process and should never replace medical care. I designed this spell to pull the sickness out of the person and into the ground to be cleansed. You ready? I am! haha here we go

Healing Spell

Ingredients

Hematite Stone

[Potion]
2pts eucalyptus
2pts sage
1pts garlic
3ps chamomile
1pts vervain
1pts carnation

 

The Spell:

Have the person drink the potion you create from the ingredients. Take the hematite stone and place it on their chest. Visualize the dark sickness pulling out of the body and into the stone and call upon Hecate

 

Dea Hecate! Audire verba! Adiuvare me panaces!

(Day-ya Hay-kah-tay! Awe-deer-eh Vere-bah! Awe-dee-ou-var-ray May Pah-nah-kess!)

 

After casting the spell, look deep into their eyes and push the sickness into their chest, and then into the stone. Slowly pull the stone away from their chest and feel the dark sickness emerging from the body being pulled by the stone. Picture the stone as having a hand reaching into their body and pulling the sickness into it.

Once you feel the sickness go into the stone, bury it in the earth for 7 days. The sickness will be taken by the earth and the stone will be cleansed.

 

After the 7 days you can then reuse the stone as needed. The sickness will be flowed from the body, into the stone, then into the earth. I hope this spell will help anyone who reads it. I love feedback. If anyone uses this spell, please let me know. Happy Healing…

 

 

sweet serenity,

Derek….

You Aren’t The One – A DMagick Poem

Greetings to all my readers!

 
I was inspired to write another poem. I had forgotten how amazing it feels to just get the words down. What I like to do when I write is just let words flow…sometimes I have an idea of where I want to poem to go…but..there are times (like tonight) that it just goes where it wants to, and I let it happen haha.

This is called you aren’t the one. There are always people in your life that you fall for, but you know deep down inside that they aren’t right for you. They don’t feel for you as you do for them, sometimes it is like they don’t even care about you at all. It may feel this way, but sometimes that isn’t true. They just don’t care for you like you want them to. It hurts…trust me I know, but usually it is for the best.

My writing style is a little…erratic? maybe? I didn’t want to say crazy, but some lines have the “wtf” moment I’m sure…but anyway..here it is. I hope you enjoy!

 

You Aren’t The One

with all the lives, the eyes around me
still you don’t see, still you don’t care
as if to bear the pain you stare
right through me
you look right through me, not to me
I have a voice, it speaks so loudly
but still you don’t hear, why don’t you hear
is it the fear that you hold near?
The words I express all end in a mess
if only I could feel inside what is real
with all the pain like a stain on my shirt
I wish you could see, In the night, I’m your light
I try to cleanse my soul as I write
but these words are rotten
and will soon be forgotten
just your eyes had begun my demise
my heart fell before I could catch it
broken on the wooden floor it lays
and there it stays
for an eternity of days
until the one comes near to snatch it

  
I’m really hoping it conveys my feelings. If you want further explanation feel free to ask. I’m glad I got this one out there. My next blog will be on a healing spell I created. I haven’t gotten to use it yet so I really need the feedback. Stay strong readers…
  

sweet serenity,

Derek….

Hey Witches!

Ok, so you made it past valentine’s day… Thank the Gods. I had a pretty good day, I spent it with someone I care very much for, unfortunately this person can never truly love me (equipment difference issues). BUT IT’S OK!! ..mostly. Anyway… in lieu of valentine’s day…the love-liest day of the year, I’m going to give a couple new love spells. These are different though. Sometimes I like to think if I were a witch of the past, what kind of spells would I create.

Thinking back in the old ways when there weren’t rules or consequences, people used their resources to the fullest, sometimes with no remorse whatsoever. I will say again that these spells aren’t meant to actually be cast, I’m sure someone still will…but please… I don’t condone control spells. I don’t feel you should force love, it won’t feel right. This is for pure educational and entertainment purposes! I took these from my soon (hopefully soon) to be released digital grimoire, or printed grimoire…oh who the hell knows. This will be in the Darker Spells section.

Be mine love potion

So this is my version of a Love Potion for control magick. Obviously this potion is designed to turn a lover to you, no matter how they feel. I don’t believe in this sort of magick…I know I’ve said this too many times, but I want to make sure that…well I think it’s wrong. Is it possible? yes, but it shouldn’t be used. Every powerful spell like this needs a catalyst, something to bind the energies together. This is why I used witch’s fingernails. The fingernail would hold the same mystic energy the witch does, so even if you aren’t a witch, you could get the nails of one to use in the potion and still be able to use it. Everyone has magick within them, it’s all about learning how to use it.

Next we have one of the darkest spells I’ve ever written. I pictured myself as an old witch living in a hut in the woods, and a desperate person came to me, begging me for a love spell to bewitch the person they desire. I caution them against it as it isn’t true love that will come of it…but they don’t care and throw money on the table.

I go to the back of the room to a bird cage and gently remove one of the pure white doves. Holding it in my arms I wave my hand over it’s head and say a prayer. From my belt i slowly slide out my ritual knife and quickly jab it directly into the bird’s heart. I take it over to a vial and drain the blood into it. Grabbing my quill I dip it into the blood, I write down the incantation for my client to speak.

Forever Love Spell page by Derek Tovar

I wonder if spells like these would still be cast to this day. I sure hope not. This to me seems like one of those spells that would take a powerful witch to break, and it would take such greed, pain and an evil heart to use such a spell… I’m actually kind of shaken that I wrote it haha. My friend wanted a scary spell for his prop book on Halloween, so I came up with this.

Let me know what you guys think!! Again, do not use these ok? please? …thank you ๐Ÿ™‚

sweet serenity,

Derek….